Lately, I’ve been running into the inevitable creative rut that plagues every artist regardless of discipline. I’ve been trying to fight through it with frustrating results. Maybe it’s time for something a little different. Maybe go someplace that I don’t usually hang out.
For some reason, I’ve been feeling a little worn down. Not entirely exhausted, but a little tired and lazy. Part of me thinks it’s just general angst about my whole financial situation. The housing situation hasn’t been going well as of late. I can’t match my competitors in my area in order to get my place sold, and each bill that comes in reminds me that I don’t have a whole lot of time left.
Aside from the condo, I’ve also had to reevaluate how serious I am about this career switch. I’ve been doing work at the studio, sure. But am I making a big enough sacrifice each week to attain my goal? I like to think that actions speak louder than words, and that mine reflect that intention. At the same time, I realize that I’ve been extremely blessed to be in this situation. Not everyone has the opportunity to pursue one’s dream job, and for that I need to be… no… should be thankful.
This is an exciting season of my life to be in. I know I should be enjoying all of this while I can even while the future is uncertain. I remember a couple weekends ago, I went snowboarding over at Stevens Pass for the second time of my life. I went through the baby courses a couple time before my friends threw me up on the blue (intermediate) hill. I admit I was a little apprehensive on the ski lift since I was still pretty green at this snowboarding thing. Looking down from the top didn’t help much either. But in order for me to get down, I had to just do it. So I took it down, slow, but I did it. After I got one run down, I went back again and again. Despite all the falls and tumbles, I had a lot of fun. If it wasn’t the last weekend of the season (plus, if I had some more disposable income), I’d go again.
In other words, stop staring down the hill like a chicken and just have fun.
By the way, if you guys would like to help me break out of this slump, feel free to send your suggestions and I’ll try to sketch something up. Thanks in advance!